Wednesday, July 17, 2013

it's getting easier

This is my new blog.  I figured out last night as I lay awake listening to Finn feed frantically from my very sore breast,  while watching the sun rise, I'm going to need to write about the adventures of having and raising a newborn.  Words are my way to feel out the emotional process.  I'm going to try and write every day.  Ha! My harsh critic says!  You have a newborn! Impossible.  But I need to write.  To feel. To express my thoughts, and not just my breast milk.
This is a full time plus job.  And I love it.  But man, it's hard.  Finn is unbelievably cute, thank goodness.  And I have the most amazing husband, who let's me cry as I breast feed, who can do the football hold, and tells me every minute how grateful he is that I gave him a son.  And as he walks Finn in the moonlight,  I can have a bath, fold some diapers, and write this blog.  I am grateful for the challenge.  And tonight when I am awake at two in the morning, and feeling exhausted, I just have to remember that there will be a time where I will miss this stage of life, and I will wish Finn was still a newborn, and not asking for the keys to the car.  

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